By: Gabby Pisani
Figuring out what I wanted to do with my life was quite difficult. At Hillsong College (where I spent three years), I was surrounded by 19-30 year-olds who just knew they wanted to be Senior pastors, or worship pastors, or business people. I felt like I was just pumped to do what I was doing. Being a Pastor’s kid has always been the biggest privilege, but when I was away from all of that, I got to find who I really was and who Jesus was to me. In finding that all out, I realized that all I wanted to do was Serve God in full time ministry.
I think it was such a challenge for me because from watching my parents, and the pastors around me, I witnessed the sacrifice and weight that came with that, and all I wanted to do was to avoid all responsibility. It sounds silly now looking back at it, but it was so challenging “fighting” with God about what he wanted for my life, and what I wanted. Obviously, God won. I think that’s why I am so thankful and humbled by what I get to do today. I never would have concocted this up in my brain. It was purely God. And I know it will always be Him. In all of that, I learned to step out of the way, and let God have His way in my life. Because I know anything that he has planned for my life is WAY better than anything I can try to make happen.
My favorite scripture? Literally the entire book of Psalms. Typical Worship Pastor answer but, it’s such a raw response to living a life with God. The lamenting songs that David writes are so real. He then turns them around to “not my will but yours God” or “Oh God I praise you”. It always challenges me.
Recently I’ve been stuck in Psalm 18: “But me he caught – reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but God stuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved. Surprised to be loved! God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before him. When I got my act together, he gave me a fresh start. Now I’m alert to God’s ways; I don’t take God for granted. Every day I review the way he works; I try not to miss a trick. I feel put back together, and I’m watching my step. God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.”
That right there changes my life every time I read it.
Born and raised in Washington, D.C., Gabby Pisani is a recent Hillsong College graduate and the creative pastor at Capital City Church. She loves typography, long walks to the fridge, potatoes, and the color Forest Green because it’s such a specific color.
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